It has been a while since I created a blog post. I have been procrastinating, ruminating and overthinking for a very long time. But here I am, back on the horse, so to speak.
I wanted to speak candidly about what has happened this year and why I have been so demotivated and uninspired. My mother-in-law died at the start of the year, and my husband and I took time out to care for her, leading up to her death. For the best part of 3 months, we were focused only on one thing… Family.
Whenever I received an enquiry or order during that time, I actually DREADED it. What was once a happy and exciting time now filled me with guilt, and I felt that I wouldn’t be able to fulfil my orders. I tried the hardest I could, posting fairly regularly on LinkedIn, Instagram and Facebook, following up on emails, completing orders (when I could, if my location permitted me!). This was the reality of starting and running your own business and dealing with real-life situations. It was so hard to try and be upbeat and positive online when everything in the real world was heavy and difficult.
I would often speak to my mother-in-law about how the business was doing and she would always beam with such pride. She was always my fiercest cheerleader. Whenever something big happens in the business, such as making the whole ‘Manx Language Exhibition’ accessible for the blind and low vision community or my accessible wedding shoot in York, I wish I could talk to her about them and show her all of the amazing pictures and tell her about all of the fantastic people I have worked with to make this world a more accessible and inclusive place. I promise I will get around to writing blog posts on ALL of the amazing stuff I have managed to do this year!
Grief is not linear, and neither is life nor running a business... But all I know is that I am here to stay, because taking that time out made me realise (even more) how much this accessibility business means to me.
So to all of the people that helped me and Dot & Type throughout one of the hardest times in my and my family’s lives, I cannot thank you enough.
Tasha